I’ve never been one to make New Year’s resolutions. I set goals on a regular basis, and though I would like to take these more serious at times, I’m proud of the life that I lead, the state of my diet, my fitness level and my spiritual growth. That being said, I felt called this year to establish for myself a New Year’s resolution of sorts, that would enable me to wake up on January 1st with confirmation that I was making a positive change in my life. One of the feelings that I seek most in my life is expansion, and I must admit that after a pretty tough Christmas, I had felt my growth stunted.
After sitting on this for some time, I thought that even though I had decided against it other years, perhaps it was time for a New Year’s cleanse of some kind. I debating between giving up sugar, wheat, or reverting temporarily to the raw vegan diet that I know and love so well, but when faced with the logistics of it all, I suddenly came to a conclusion about my current diet. I don’t need to make any changes to the way I eat. Currently, I eat a balanced and nutritious vegetarian diet, with a little sugar and chocolate thrown in where I please. I don’t drink alcohol, I get a good sleep every night, I meditate daily and exercise regularly. If I wanted to make a change, I would really need to look to the areas in my life that make me feel sluggish, stagnant or stuck.
So I meditated on this, and over and over the same scenario played in my head. Although I don’t own a television, I had been spending an increasing amount of time in front of my computer watching television shows and movies. Not that I have anything against this occasional indulgence, I’m a firm believer in letting ourselves “veg out” and watch a little meaningless, silly drama on the television, here and there, but I had begun to watch a negative pattern arise in my life. I was starting to feel guilt about the time that I spend doing this, and the other things that I push to the side when I do it.
So, while sitting with close friends at the dawn of a new year, sitting under the light of a new moon, I promised myself that I would spend the next month, or how ever many days after that, exploring what it’s like to remove television and movies from my life. Simple as that. Commitment, absolution and accountability. Strangest thing of all, is that, of all the countless cleanses, fasts and fitness challenges that I’ve participated in, this one scared me the most upon waking up. Perhaps, it’s a sign that I have much to learn from such a break, or perhaps it’s a sign that I have developed more of a dependency on moving pictures than I thought.
So here we go. Day 1.
I am an expressive expander with a passion for plants & wellness, inspiring positive change through genuine connection. I am a communications and digital marketing strategist who believes that success is the result of unwavering authenticity, epic project management, real relationships, and insightful reflection. I am an applied cultural ethnobotonist and caretaker of plant medicine creating deeply respectful, loving, and healing relationships between people and their environment, their bodies, their ancestry, and their spirit.